I love you too.

Someone I love has done

What I could only barely stop myself from doing.

She has gone completely into the darkness

And she bites the hands that try to pull her back.

I can't stop myself from getting bitten

Because she was the one that pulled me back.

Things I've Said to my Father:

I think that someone is trying to kill me.

What's that?

Ian : [Looking at happier.com]

Quinn : What's that?

Ian : Something I saw on google ad's. I think it's supposed to cure depression or something.

Quinn : Haha... what, are you like depressed or something?

Ian : Google ad's seems to think so.

Quinn : Yeah, but are you?

Ian : 

Jake.

A friend 

who used to be quite quiet 

yells in a large room 

full of people.

"DON'T YOU JUST WANT 

TO GET OUT OF HERE 

SO BADLY?!

DON'T YOU JUST WANT

TO LEAVE?!

DON'T YOU JUST HATE

ALL THESE PEOPLE?!

LIKE THIS FUCKER RIGHT HERE,

OR THAT ASSHOLE?"

[A loud sigh]

"I fucking hate

A lot of these

people.

It's bad."

His voice was like a blade

His words were like rocks.

Ants.

There are ants now

everywhere.

They crawled

up a story and

through a windowsill.

They swarmed on bottles

on desks

on hands

on arms and 

bodies.

They find no food

and they panic.

They're just children

so small.

They dont bite back

and they die

so easily.

Every Part of Me.

Every part of me is dying

falling away

like I'm a statue

thats made of dirt.

What did I have

What did I lose.

What do I have

What do I lose.

What can I have

What can I lose.

Answers used to keep me up at night,

and now it is questions.

The Seven Angels.

The Seven Angels

have appeared before me and

The Seven Angels 

have spoken to me. 

The first angel said : Lust for things, for things will complete you.

I said I want nothing.

The second angel said : Fill thyself with excess, for it will make you whole again.

I said I could never feel whole again.

The third angel said : Gain much wealth, for that will get you everything you need.

I said I did not need anything.

The fourth angel said : Punish your enemies, for revenge will make you feel strong.

I said I could not punish someone for doing what they believe is just.

The fifth angel said : Desire much, for it will make you wealthy.

I said I had no reason to want wealth.

The sixth angel said : Take great pride in what you have, for it will make you strong.

I said I could not feel proud, for I had nothing.

The seventh angel said : Do not do anything, for it will make you feel content.

I said I knew that it did not, 

but that I could not stop.